Adult Trainee

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Wearing: Asos Army Jacket; Paper Scissors dress; Boston Babe Shoes c/o Flaunt PR Marketing; Disney Watch thanks to Disney; Illamasqua 'Ignite' Lipstick

I'm 25, and when I was younger, I imagined that I would already be married. I thought by now I could control my feelings and emotions and that life is meant to be one 'happily-ever-after' script. Now I know - life is sometimes meant to be winged.
Like for example - I just let my emotions take over me yesterday. I sort of indulged in letting people know how I felt (I felt hurt, frustrated or angry with a couple of my friends). It feels good once you're doing it, then you sort of feel shit because you realise you made the other person feel bad. Then you go into self-pity or escapee-mode. I spent yesterday building up the courage to confront my friends, then a few minutes being angry, then suddenly regret, then a 'I-hate-myself' moment, then you get angry at yourself for letting your anger take over you. I then escaped my life for an hour by indulging in some fun. I felt better, yet still needing to spend time making it up to my friends.
What a roller-coaster day. I definitely winged it, and it sort of sucked. But now that it's over, I can concentrate on this fact: I'm 25, technically an adult, but sometimes don't feel like one. I will always have lessons to learn and have up & down days. At 25, I am still an adult trainee....

23 comments :

  1. so cute!!!
    xoxo
    Stacy

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  2. First off - love the shoes!!!
    Secondly - don't we all feel like that sometimes?!?!? I think it's perfectly normal for people to be 'adult trainees' all their life. We learn something new everyday :)

    x x Stace

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  3. I have been in a similar situation lately, and it's just awful the way you beat yourself up for it. It's amazing when we are young, the things we thought we would have done by 25. I certainly imagined myself married - my happily ever after seemed so certain back then! Now, it's just one day at a time, hoping the other shoe won't drop.
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  4. You look amazing!!

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  5. I love how fun and cute the photos are...and life is all about learning and making mistakes :-)

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  6. You look so cute. ❤

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  7. Your fringe is to die for, always gets me!! Haha. I Loveeeeeee your shoes too x

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  8. I love love love these pictures. You look beautiful and these photos are adorable with the bear. I think n matter how old you get life is all about learning. We continue to grow and go through rollcoasters. And life is pretty much winged you can only plan so much.

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  9. amazing pics!
    lovely teddy bear! jaja
    xoxo

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  10. Only you tend to seamlessly balance tough and girly. You did so again with this cute dress and chic golden sandals. Nice story to go with the outfit. The big teddy bear is cute, too.

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  11. You have ah-mazing photography! And where did you find that big ole teddy bear?! Too cute!

    Tiff

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  12. There are so many parts of what you say in this post that I relate to!
    Like you, I thought I would have my "act" together. There is much to life that I never thought I would experience and other things I thought I would have. I've learned 'never say never' and to 'go with the flow.' It's not easy since I thought by now, I would have more "control" over certain things in my life. I'm still trying to define what my life is but I guess that's the whole point...that I can. =)

    xo,
    nancy

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  13. You look so lovely!

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  14. Another great outfit post Natalie & I home the rollercoaster ride takes a break for a while but I know what you're talking about

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  15. Love the camo :) Such cute pictures.

    x lauren
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  16. your metallic shoes are fab!

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  17. amazing photos !!!
    I love ur jacket!

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  18. I think I know how you're feeling. When I was in highschool I somehow had my whole life planned out and even though I'm on my way to 23, nothing is according to plan and to be honest, I'm kind of loving that! It's so easy to make all these fanciful plans when you're younger and to actually carry them out when you hit that requisite age.

    On a side note, I'm loving your red lips with the camouflage jacket (and especially the teddy bear!)

    x karen
    www.thechicndamned.blogspot.com

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