My Dog Sokchea

My Dog Sokchea RIP 31st January 2020

I haven't had the heart to post something about Sokchea since she died in January this year. But now I have the strength to.

Rest in Peace little Sokchea, my best friend. She passed away while being hospitalised for Kidney disease and on the third night she suddenly got a blood clot to the brain and she just left this earth. I had just visited an hour earlier and she seemed to just hang on long enough to say goodbye to me.

I realise now as I walk around the house how empty it is without her following me around. She used to greet me at the door with a treat in her mouth every night. She was super friendly and full of character.

I now sleep alone in the bed when hubby works night shift and watch TV without her in my lap. It's been really hard and now I'm in the process of packing away her belongings and it brings me to tears. She was a big part of my life for at least seven years. She really was family.

I know Sokchea is up in doggy heaven continuing to be a good doggy. I love you 💕

Thank you for the condolences and for people who have reached out to me, you've been amazing and I feel the love.

Forever Young

I'm sorry I said we were tainted. We are not. If anything we have been faithful only to each other. You and I are still the most stable thing I've ever had since I can remember. 

Just know that no one in this world could ever love you like I have loved you. You have my heart. 

I'm just... I'm sorry I couldn't be that girl that you could only keep from sunset to sunrise.
If only.. you believed in forever. 

My Wedding Vows

Location: Mount Annan Botanical Gardens - Wattle Garden
Photos by Clarziqque Photography and Video

Wedding Dress: Skirt by Jurgita Bridal, Top was handmade, Viel from a friend.

Ceremony Arch Backdrop: Handmade. Followed Tutorial from Style Me Pretty

I started my vows at least three months before the wedding, but the challenge to get them right dawned on me every day. Everyday, I was adding, removing, chopping, thinning or giving more depth, constantly tweaking.

So I did what I did best, and left it alone for some time and went back to it a few days just before the wedding. The pressure to pull the wedding together was already effecting me but the pressure cleared my mind. 

In the end though, all I did was pour my nerdy heart out:

Hai, You and I know we could've crossed paths at least three years earlier. We could've been a couple for much longer. 

But we didn't and we weren't. We met at a time where we were finally ready for each other. 

...... I like to believe that when fate allowed us to meet, it was because it was meant to be. We met so we could guide one another to become even better versions of ourselves right here, right now. 

And we've had three years full of patience, understanding, fun, compassion, adventures, kindness, stubbornness, and most of all, love. 

So Hai, I vow to continue our journey with gusto, like Korra trying to achieve the Avatar state. 

I vow to be as strong as I can be for you, just like a level 20 D&D character. 

I vow, to walk by your side and support you like Pikachu supports Ash.

I vow, to bake you Anzac Cookies more than once a year. 

I vow, to not tell a soul your secret recipe for HFC. 

I vow, to love you more then I love my own iPod. 

I vow to kick anyone's ass if they say your car is anything other then a Jeep. 

And I vow that we will grow together to achieve everything we want in life. We will be the Super Sayan, a Pokemon's final evolution, the Luke Skywalker from Episode 6. 

And we would do it with flair just like One Punch Man's serious moves. 

Thank you for letting me be me and loving me for who I am. I vow to continue to do the same for you. My heart swells with love at the thought of our future together. 

So in saying that Hai, I promise that you will always have my Spider Staff....

I had asked eleven members across the The Battle Crusaders (our D&D group) and our friends to participate with my vows to Hai. In a Lord of The Rings fashion, our friends shouted out things like "And my Fireball, And my Javelin, And my Charm!" and I was really relieved Hai finally got what was going on as his face went from confusion to laughter. I asked him later on that day and he admitted his first thoughts were "Who are these dickheads trying to ruin my wedding?"

An Engagement Announcement

Photos taken by Hai using Gopro Hero 5 Camera

I fell in love with him a few months after I met him. And then a few months later he called me his girlfriend. Soon, we celebrated our first and second year anniversaries at nice restaurants or on special hikes. We were together for our 28th, 29th and now 30th birthdays. I swore his cargo pants will never grow on me, and he said he would never love my dogs. I did love his Jeep though, and he loved my freshly baked Anzac cookies.

When I first tried his famous fried chicken, my eyes went wide and I said "This is marriage material". He never let that go and for the next three years we had a running joke that I'd never get the secret recipe until we were married.
And I always reminded him I wanted to be engaged before I was thirty. He always said "I know" and kissed me. Then we decided to celebrate our 2 and a half year anniversary and 30th Birthday in Victoria. Hai proposed to me at Lake Reeve, a 10 hour drive from Sydney. When I said yes, he said "I also wanted to get engaged before I was 30, too". And inside the ring box, was Hai's secret chicken recipe.

I know what you read just now, probably felt like I put a bunch of messy sentences together. I don't know. I tried to think of a more poetic way of telling the story of how me and Hai fell in love and got engaged, but I'm stuck.
In the end, sometimes photos tell better stories than words.
You can see in these photos, that I love this man, and I love how happy he makes me. My world is a thousand times better when he is by my side, no matter how many times I declare I need "space".
We are adventurous, love to laugh together and adore the outdoors.

To finish off my randomly written blog post - I simply can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you Hai. I knew we were meant to be from the moment I realized I hated your cargo pants (and knew they were never going to go away). Thank you Hai, for asking me to be your wife.